Wednesday, April 30, 2008

I shouldn't let it get to me...

I shouldn't let it get to me , but it does.
I can't really go into much detail, but suffice it to say that some people are selfish jerks.

I tried to do everything they wanted just in order to keep the peace while Stuntman was gone... but it wasn't enough.. I guess I'm the asshole now. whatever. you're bugging me about $90 when you owe us many, many times that?! whatever.
You've had such a tough year... really? did you once ask if I needed any help... did you once call to see if I was OK? if the kids were OK? did it bother you when you yelled at me at my own birthday party? I'm done now. I am so done being nice. I'm not going to answer your calls just so you can yell at me. yea for caller ID.

I slept almost 2 hours last night in-between crying because of hurtful things said and my mind racing and not allowing my body to rest.

in other news... Sparky is ill... the vet is doing diagnostic tests but hasn't found anything yet. She's gone from 50 lbs to 36 lbs. I bring her back to the vet tomorrow for more tests. I love that goofy dog.


A Soldier's Wife..... said...

I'm sorry that people are treating you poorly during this time. I divorced myself from my family during my husband's second deployment when my sister had the nerve to tell me to stop using it as an excuse to make everyone feel like my life was worse then theirs....I hung up and refused to speak to her, canceled a trip home for Christmas. I sort of figured, why go home where I was going to be treated like crap, I was being treated like that already 800 miles away, I could just stay home and not have to feel guilty if I cried.....just ignore people who have no ability to find their nice bone and realize how much you are going through. You simply have the choice to walk away from that relationship NO MATTER WHO THEY ARE. Even when people are being stupid to my face, I walk away while they are talking, I'm not going to stand their while they act the idiot towards me......hugs I think I know a little of how you feel.

I'm sorry Sparky is ill, I hope your vet can find out what the issue is and find it fast!!!! I have a crazy goofy little pup who keeps me on my toes, so I know that goofy pup love too......

Try to keep your chin up and anyone who is not on your side is NOT your friend right now, they are draining you and you need all your strength right now until your husband comes home, cut them out.....sounds harsh but that time, when it happened to me, I gotta tell you, taking away the drama of my family, it was heaven....eventually they all begged forgiveness, but by then my husband was home and I was stronger!

Susan said...

thanks SW, I can't believe how insensitive some people can be sometimes, can you?
I've tried ignoring and walking away... now I'm just totally just staying out of their lives. like I said, thanks for caller ID.
Not once, did I ever tell them how rough it was when Stuntman was away, and they never asked. They so often told me how rough their life was, that I didn't even bother.

Buck said...

Wow. This doesn't sound good at all. Hang in there, Susan. It looks like your BS-detector is in fine functioning order, along with that indispensable Caller-ID. I hope things get better.

Bon said...

Oh no, I'm so sorry for this. Sometimes it really does just come down to not accepting that kind of behavior from anyone, no matter who they are, as SW said. Caller ID for the win.

Hoping for everything to turn out ok for Sparky. Our fur-children mean just as much to us as our human ones.

Sleep well tonight *hug*

Ann M. said...

I am so sorry that you're dealing with this right now. I think that you are doing what is best for you, though, and that's the most important thing. You don't need people in your life that are only going to make things harder right now. Surround yourself with good friends and family that support you and let the rest go.

I hope Sparky is OK, too.

Sending good thoughts your way...

mel said...

I tell ya, people just don't care anymore. I'm sorry that you are having to deal with this.

I know all to well that when it rains, it pours. :(

Sorry lady. Chin up. I'm here for you!!

liberal army wife said...

Yeah... got one of those too. DH and I had both had enough. Right after the extension, when I just couldn't speak, all I wanted to do was cry, I came home to screaming diatribes on my answering machine. When DH was home on leave, nasty emails.. No more. thank you very much. And honestly, I feel better for it.

cut them off. You don't need this.


Susan said...

I feel so much better today. I'm just done with the drama.
Thanks to everyone for your support, and knowing that I'm not the only one.

ABW said...

Sorry you have to go through this. I can totally relate!